another him

I wish he would've never used my emotions against me cause even though I thought I was over him he's still the one person I like to talk about and see his face


I thought all of my emotions were gone. But when I saw that picture of h the emotions came back.

It's a bittersweet feeling that I can't shake away when I see that picture I wish it wasn't there until I knew for sure that my feelings for him were.gone.

When I had that dream of him last night it made me think that maybe there is a chance of moving on from him. I just wish it was as easy as people say.

I have distractions, I have accepted the fact I might actually love him I've tried gaining.New crushes bit who am I kidding it's no use. I don't want to use the new crushes as a rebound or whatever it's called for him when I know I'm not the one on his mind.

I went days without looking at his photos and that day out of all days had to be the one day I looked at it. Wrong choice.

I should stop reminiscing over what could have been and start paying attention to the things in front of me. I promise you though that if he was to come back into my life instead of saying no I would hurriedly say yes. The reason I say that is because somewhere buried inside of me I know that my feelings are strong as the first day I saw him.

i try

I try so hard to get him off of my.mind bit it never works. He's all I think about. I sometimes h I never met but I know we would regret not meeting him. I have tried to have other crushes but that's not even helping. It's only made matters worse. I just want to give up on it and everything.

I honestly don't know what's to be fought for. I like him and two other people. I thought that me not telling him would help me Throughout they year but turns out it o.my made my feelings for him expand. I just don't know what to do. I wish things would Starr living up to the way where I'm not hurt. But I guess that's how life works huh