letter to my crush

Dear crush,

I don't regret falling for you or meeting you. I mean who could?

You are an amazing person and I know you see it. 

The first time we met we barely talked and now I consider you as a friend.

When we started talking I wasn't expecting to feel this way about you and now I can't believe it happened so quickly.

Thanks to my best friend I met you and made a friend. 

You don't see it but I like you a lot. The reason I say you don't see it is because things would have been more awkward if you had known. 

Thanks to my best friend I have now realized that you are funny, nice and cool to hang around. But I should be also thanking myself for finally growing a pair of balls and talk to the guy I liked.

If I hadn't never talked to you I wouldn't be feeling the way I feel right more. My face wouldn't twitch from smiling way too much throughout the day and most of all I wouldn't be listening to the songs I listen to... or maybe I would've I'm not sure. 

But what I am sure of is that if I never talked to you and I ended up liking you I would beat myself up. Because there were lots of times I could've talked to you. 

But I'm not too stupid to know that what I feel is just a crush. It will eventually fade when I no longer see you around and start to like other people. 

Hopefully I will have enough courage to talk to them like how I talked to you.

I remember the first time I told another one of my best friend that I liked you. I kept telling her about how you were funny weird(in a good way) and nice. 

I felt all giddy and couldn't stop smiling. I told her I felt high but all she could say was that she was happy that I was happy. And when she said that I thought to myself," yeah I am happy."

It wasn't a lie because obviously I still am happy. 

But the sad thing is. I feel like there's too many obstacles that would be getting in the way. I mean I would barely see you, you live far away and I don't even have your number so our friendship would be lost. 

Those obstacles is what makes it hard. Cause I fell for you knowing I had screwed myself. Those obstacles up there are reasons why we can't be. I accepted that fact when I admitted to myself that I liked you. 

Yeah granted its only been  a week I feel as though it's been longer than a week. Cliche I know but it's true in my world. 

Before you go I want to tell you that I like you but I'm just not ready for that yet.I know things will be awkward and it will be bad for me cause I know you only see me as a friend. But your friendship is more than I can ask for.

I know it's strange for my best friend to hear the things I tell her about you and that's gonna atop for now on unless she asks me of it. 

But I guess that all there is to it that it's just a crush and you don't even know. But I like the fact that you don't know because it's something mysterious and has you wondering on who I could be talking about. 

And it makes me happy that you want to know who I'm talking about. It gives me hope that maybe that you want that person to be you...

Well to end this I should say

I like you a lottle. It's like a little except a lot.       :)

                                                                                                                           Sincerely,

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