Sometimes I think what life would be like if I stayed.
Would anything have changed?


People tell me all the time I'm in a better place but honestly it all feels the same. The same dream. The same rude people. The same struggles. When is it going to change?

One cannot live a life like this. It's not acceptable.


The life before is the one I tried to get away from not go back to.

I have tried to conquer my problems and face them like the mature person I am;but it only bites me in the butt ten times harder than before.

 So I gave up. I can't please no one but myself. That's why I'm the person I am. I am tired of the drama and people never changing but saying they will. It's all a lie.

I don't like to run from my problems but I feel like no one is there. No one cares enough to hear my story and help me out. It feels like I'm all by myself.


To try not to feel this way I distract myself.

Does it help?

Not really cause I still think of it even when I promised myself I wouldn't.

Now what can I do that about that?

There's nothing to do right?

Nothing but to just sit and watch it all unfold into a big mess....








I'm not gonna see myself be that person it is not who I want to be.
I'm going to change those negative factors in my life and make them disappear.  They are no longer going to distract me from accomplishing my dreams.

To all of those out there just keep holding on. I know you've heard people say it lots of times but listen to them. Many times I have wanted to give up because I tell myself I don't have to deal with these people when I'm older. Make the negative things in your life disappear or turn them into positive factors.