taking the fall

As I sit and think to myself I can't help but think about him.

His eyes.

His smile.

The way he dresses.

His personality.


It's all the things that pulled me in to like him.

 I told myself over and over again that he would and doesn't like me. And to this day I still think it's true.

I mean come.on guys be honest if you had a class with a girl you liked you would want to talk to her. Guys don't sit and stare at a girl unless he is thinking 'wow she is cute/pretty/beautiful I.want to talk to her' .

No that's not how it went. He went a whole year without making a move. That's pretty.obvious there. A guy doesn't male a move on you because a)you're friend zoned,b)he's not interested or c) because he's taken. Of course there are other reasons but him... I know choice b is the answer with him.

He pulled me in with his personality and then just stopped and I'm not supposed to care.

NEWS FLASH HONEY! I'm not like the materialistic girls when you make a funny face at me and wave that's all it takes to pull me in especially if I had liked you once.

I was willing to fall and hurt myself all over again because you did something simple like making me laugh.

When you look at me you should be able to tell that it doesn't take a lot to impress me. All you have to do is make a move.

You shouldn't be scared because I don't hang around the type of people your friends are. I know you're not like that so don't mind falling for you.

But it tears me apart when I see you laughing and.giggling with her. It could be.been us.but you didn't make the move. I'm sorry but that's not my fault. I have you hint after hint and you didn't want it so that part was on you.

The part that was on me was falling for your tricks. I always knew you didn't feel the same because I saw the way you looked at her.

Yes I notice the looks you give her that you don't give me but it shows merging... it shows she's the one you care about. She's the one the one that gained your interest. . She's the one that hangs out with your friends.

Bit when she breaks your heart I don't want you to pull me in for me to give my hopes up again.

I know it's only my fault for doing that. But you know as well as I that I wouldn't have fallen so hard if you didn't pulls me in and if I didn't have such a big heart.

You are not the only one that has feelings you know. I sit in my room every day and night and think of the things that we could we be doing as a couple if you had big enough balls to make the freaking move.

Be more courageous.

I can't help the fact that I'm always going to have feelings for you. But maybe one day you will get hurt just as badly.as I'm hurting now. You will see how it felt.to be lead.on by a person you told yourself you didn't like over and over. But most of all you will question yourself on if that's how it felt when you hurt me that way.


But now your probably wondering why I didn't make the first move. Well as I didn't make out because I knew I had no chance with you. You would do nothing but Sat"oh sorry I don't feel the same way" and talk and.laugh about it with your friends. So while you're sitting there being happy and jolly and making fun of me. I'm hurting and crying my eyes out to my friends because I liked you enough to tell you to your face.

For me being a shy girl that takes a lot of courage and confidence and to do nothing but have it shattered away by the person I liked the most is a major risk. It's one I don't like taking. It's one you proved I was foolish for making.

I just hope that one day you meet a pretty girl and you get your heart broken by the one you didn't want to lose. I hope you figure out how it feels to walk by you and see you everyday and me knowing you destroyed my confidence and that I know I'm invisible to.

 Tell me if it doesn't hurt. Cause I bet your top dollar you will regret ever making a person feel this way